Sylva Fae

Ch-ch-ch-Changes

‘I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence and
So the days float through my eyes
But still the days seem the same…’
— David Bowie

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Change is the perfect word to describe my life of late. I made the difficult choice to leave my job of sixteen years and venture out into the unknown. It wasn’t an easy decision but in my heart I felt it was the right one. I had come to view the career I once loved as an ordeal to be endured daily. The only things that kept me from escaping years ago were my amazing colleagues who will be my good friends forever and the fear of making changes.

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As I signed a farewell contract on my old life, the fears dissipated to be replaced with the excitement of embarking on a new path. That path lead me to a new career in a place that feels more like family than work. I spend my days smiling, being creative, reading stories and playing outside in the sunshine. Bliss! In case you haven’t guessed, I have become a pre-school teacher and have the privilege to work with a team that already feel like friends. I arrive each morning looking forward to what the day will bring and leave each afternoon, uplifted.

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Why was I so scared to make the changes in my life? Change is what I relish most in my little woodland; the changing of the seasons, watching the mood change as the leaves grow and the flowers bloom. I enjoy seeing the sunlight decorate the woodland floor with new patterns as the tree canopy grows. I love how each month restyles and reshapes the woods, bringing new colours, new beauty and new adventures. There is something very reassuring about seeing the changes in nature, and though I’ve witnessed my woodland’s seasonal transformations many years over, the elements bring forth their own little surprises, keeping it fresh and exciting.

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What better way to relax after a tiring week’s work than a woodland ramble. We set off to create a new path, seeking out adventure. Down on the far side of the wood, foxgloves had sprung up, taller than the children, adding a contrast of purple to the luscious greens of the fern and new foliage. The girls delighted in wading through a jungle of leaves as we wound our way down to the secret field.

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We carefully stepped over the vicious thorny brambles, now softened by dainty white flowers and an indication of what a good crop of blackberries we can expect later in the year. Running through the Secret Field, my little ones threw grass seeds at each other and raced through the long grass. Our Magic Clover Patch yielded two more four leaf clovers, and we decided that was enough wishes for one day.

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We carried on up the hill to the farm to discover two runaway lambs. The braver of the two came over for cuddles and tried to nibble our clothes, much to the girls’ amusement.

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My old nemesis, the cheeky peacock, called down a ‘hello’ from a rooftop as we made our escape from the friendly lamb, and wandered back to the woods.

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A beautiful day out at the end of a week of great changes. I look forward to my working week ahead for the first time in ages but also, I can’t wait to return to the woods to check out the ch-ch-ch-changes…

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18 thoughts on “Ch-ch-ch-Changes

  1. Cat michaels

    I love the way you embrace change and take a different path. Congrats for having the courage to take the plunge and find a new way that suits you so well! Thanks for sharing your journey and awesome photos, too.

  2. Brian G Chambers

    How I wish I had been as brave as you and made my changes many years ago. Now I am left wondering if my life would have turned out better than it has. Is it too late in life for change? Or should we all just go for it?

    1. Sylva FaeSylva Fae Post author

      We can’t change the choices we made previously but we can control what happens in our future. It’s a balance. I’m a ponderer and I list all the factors good and bad then weigh them up. I add weight to anything that is going to promote happiness and take from those things that are only there because of my pride or ego. As for age, what does it matter? Any change that makes you happier will make your family happy too. Don’t rush into it but at least consider the possibilities. Good luck Brian!

    2. Tom Benson

      Hi Brian. I don’t know you, but with the greates respect, it’s never too late.
      I dropped from full time retail management to 3-day sales assistant about four years ago – when I was 58, and my whole outlook has been different since day one.
      I made sure I would still be able to pay the bills – and then it was time.
      The worst thing you can do is delay what you might be able to do now.
      I hope you can go for it.

  3. Tom Benson

    A fine, uplifting way to start the day Sylva. I’m over the moon for you and I’m sure with each new day you’ll be so happy you took the step. Nobody is going to hand a more pleasant future to you on a plate, so you have to take your courage and the trepidation that goes with it in both hands … and get on with it.
    I stepped down from retail management about four years ago now, so I’m well accustomed to my role as a three-day-a-week sales assistant. As far as I was concenred, the day I left that five long day slog behind me, I became a creative writer – and the retail job may be a bit lower down the scale but so too is the responsibility.
    I think Brian needs to evaluate his life and see if he can change too. It is so worthwhile as you are on the verge of finding out.
    Ch . ch . ch . changes is one of my favourite tracks of all time. Reminds me of my days in Northern Ireland.
    Great post my friend.

    1. Sylva FaeSylva Fae Post author

      I haven’t looked back Tom. These changes have brought me closer to home and to my family – they will always be my priority.

  4. Neil G

    Another beautiful piece from your blog, uplifting and heart-warming. Sometimes the changes we’re forced to make can be the most powerful as we grow through facing our own fears and resistance. Willingness is a wonderful thing but so too is the courageous acceptance of the inevitable as we embrace what has to be. Well done, well written! I hope you’ll be posting a few pics of those ripened blackberries. Big forest love to you and the family.

  5. Sylva FaeSylva Fae Post author

    I’ll save you some blackberries Neil. Thanks for popping in again. PS I’m sorry – I’ve set Hippy off singing Bowie songs!

    1. Sylva FaeSylva Fae Post author

      Thank you Damyanti. You know I love my pics. I’m no photographer but I enjoy snapping when we’re out on a woodland walk.

  6. Silas Payton

    A beautifully written story of courage. It takes a lot to analyze our own situation without bias and fear. In a change like you’ve chosen, you may grow apart from some friends and even lose some of the things that brought you joy, but you will gain new friends, new joys, new excitement that you may not have realized possible, or had anticipated. Congratulations on recognizing a need for change and I applaud your courage to act on it. I recognize a number of names in the comments, who with myself, I’m sure, are happy to be amongst your group of new friends on this wonderful journey we call life.

    1. Sylva FaeSylva Fae Post author

      Thank you Silas. I didn’t feel very courageous at times. I pondered, wavered, had positive days and days of doubt, but I found peace with the decision I knew to be right. It certainly helps to have a supportive family and good friends. I am missing a few colleagues but I’ve stayed in contact with them and time will tell who the real friends are.
      Thanks for stopping by my little blog Silas.

  7. Lisa Shambrook

    Isn’t it funny how we love changes in nature, but struggle with them in our own lives? It took me years to be able to appreciate change, and now I try to embrace it! Good luck with yours 🙂

    1. Sylva FaeSylva Fae Post author

      I think we are very similar Lisa. I do love the changes but always look forward to bluebell season.

  8. Anni Stewart

    First of all I must say congratulations Sylva on making such a momentous decision. Reading your blog leads me to believe that you are going to be very happy having made the change and will go on to enjoy many contented years in your new career. Sounds wonderful to me. Change is never easy however much we want it, but I believe that it is the decision that is the hardest part. Weighing up and re-weighing up the pros and cons. So much easier after that. I made a huge career change many moons ago and went on to have a wonderful 30 plus year career. I wish you days full of loveliness. I have no fairy dust to sprinkle upon you but that doesn’t matter as you have your own inbuilt supply of sparkle.

    1. Sylva FaeSylva Fae Post author

      Anni that’s such a beautiful comment. I’m blessed to have friends like you. Thank you xxx

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